And away I go

Heading out in a minute. Maccas for breaky. Then it's me and the LORD, and my bike for the weekend. Ow, and I think I will throw in Monday as well. 

 Gotta get a camera . My phone one is low res. Doh. 
A prayer:
LORD GOD please keep me safe this weekend. I pray dear JESUS that YOU open the hearts of those I am going to come across these days away, and YOU soften them to YOUR word and to the message of salvation through YOUR glorious SON, JESUS CHRIST. 
Amen my lovely GOD.

Well after a quick pit stop at the porcelin, I'm outta here. 
Blessing to you all. 
Me out

Away

Well the weekend has finally arrived. You beaut. I've got Monday off, so decided to go away for a few days. Come on, give me a break, I haven't woken up somewhere else for a long time.
So half packed the van, [had to clean the bike][covered in mud n' dirt from Lysty,] finish off in the morn. 
Staying at Rawson caravan park. Sat night I will sleep in the van. And Sun,Ive got a cabin. 
Ow yeah....me ...my bike....and my bible. 
Really going to seek my JESUS these days. Just gotta get a hold on what HE wants me to do. 
Tell ya what, that movie I saw last night just blew me away. So much wanna do HIS will. To walk by faith in the Almighty. Ow yeah to that.
Praying for my family. For unity. For all of them,[and me] to desire GOD over anything else. Now that's a life well spent.
Will do a night ride if the weather holds out. Sorta gotta be careful, cause I will be up the sticks, and if I loose it there, it's a long wait for a train don't come. 
A prayer:
Dear JESUS, I ask YOU LORD GOD to move on my heart. To mold it to YOUR desire. 
I mean YOU are my creator, The Potter of my life. 
HOLY SPIRIT of GOD, keep me safe to do YOUR will. 
May my feet walk YOUR way. 
My hands do YOUR will. 
My ears listen to YOUR call. 
My eyes look YOUR way.
My mouth speak YOUR word.
My mind think YOUR truths. 
My heart cry for what moves YOU.  Amen dear Saviour.


Well nearly beddyby time. So bless you all. 
Me out.

Mens group

At mens group tonight, we watched a movie called, "Faith like Potatoes". Really touched my heart. And has stirred me on to pray for my family so much more. And to ask the LORD to break my heart of selfishness. Amen to that. 

Anyway, it's waaaay too late. Me out. 

Tonight in the dark

Had a really good ride tonight at the lake. Mud and slippery tree roots. Lol. Lots of fun. My phone takes terrible night shots, but here are just a couple of the real dangerous creatures to avoid. HA. There was a full moon above that killer of a T'shirt wearing Koala. 
Tried to get some Kangaroo pics, but they just hopped off. Funny bout that. 
Well off to beddy soon. Praise the LORD. Me out.

A winter wonderland

I so need to defrost my fridge. The door wouldn't close, and I had to break some plastic to shut it. 
Lazy, yes, but such is life in a depressed, divorced,dorks life. lol.
Anyway, charging up the battery to my lights so I can go for a night ride at Lysterfield. 
It will be cold. Ow yes, it will be cold. But I'm tough. Well at least that's the illusion I have. 
I thank YOU LORD for showing me what YOU want from me in this life. Keeping my eyes open for the call. 
Me out.

It's only 4:59

So far, been to work, watched a movie, exercised, lunched, showered, and yet to go to bible school. 
Work was good. One of my cleaners came back from New Zealand with lolly lais for me. Had a Kranski and cheese roll for lunch. Watched The Lovely Bones.....I cried. Did my shoulder execises. Washed todays dirt off my body. 
Tonight got part 3 of Holy Spirit doctrine.
Well might go rustle up some dinner
Not very exciting hey. 
Me out.

This day is done.

A day of stress, and prayer. 
Part of me can't wait till tomorrow night, when I know she will be heading back to NSW. Or I think she is. Another part of me who misses her so much just want's her back. 
Ow well. I'm on the carousel of life, just wondering if I'm on the right horse.  Hey I like that . Well, the saying, not the feeling. lol. 
Watching Earth Sea. Like this show. It's sort of cool. 
Wondering if I should slowly pull away from my two boys and their wives. As all the pain of being divorced and the hurt from that is taking it's toll on my heart so much. Such a horrible place to be. 
Todays prayer:
LORD GOD I so want to do YOUR will, and to walk in YOUR ways. LORD I pray to listen for YOUR voice, to look for YOUR direction for my life. I really want YOU to take me home to be with YOU, but if YOU don't want this for me yet, then I ask YOU  to guide me in this life. YOU know I'm not the sharpest tool on the shelf, so I ask YOU to please make YOUR  direction for me pretty obvious. Ta LORD JESUS. Trusting in YOU always. Amen. 

 Hay LORD sunrises are so beautiful. Just wanted to write that. 
Me out.
 Me and my babies.

And I thought I was fine?

Thought I was so getting over the X, when at church tismorn, my youngest told me she was in town till Tuesday. Ow yeah, I freaked. Well internally any way. SUCKS to still be in love.
You know LORD, I so wanna be over her. And yet I so don't.
A dicotamy of thought's. Um, maybe the wrong word. And spelt wrong. But deal that is big.
 Had a good MTB ride with Graham. Pushed it hard for a quick lap of the Blair Witch, the Comms track, and Buckle.
Now off to bed. Alone. Pathetic. Single. Miserable.
But on a lighter note, did you know that since I got the chest waxed, [damm that hurt], I don't get any belly button lint. Now that is amazing. Don't you think? Also think they ripped of one of my nipples. Ow that's not right. And I'm not Metrosexual, as my young friend Jen tells me. Lol.
Praise YOU LORD JESUS, use me tomorrow for YOUR kingdom cause. So glad YOU still love me.
There is a point where the Potter makes the clay just the way HE wants it to be. HE'S not wrong in this, cause basicly, HE is the one doing the creating.

Me out.

How many?

I just realized that I have never counted the teeth in my mouth. I mean, I'm 50 years old, and in all those years, and all that teeth cleaning, I have never once counted my teeth. I really don't know how many there are.
I got no baby teeth left. Woo yeah ... long gone.
My four wisdom teeth got pulled out by my uncle. [Um, he was a dentist.] [So that's cool.]
Wisdom teeth. Ow that's rich. I think my wisdom left with em. Ow I digress.
The bottom molar on the left has long gone. Lost that up at Atherton on the Tablelands. But that's another story. Well not really a story. Boring actually. 
The one next to that had root canal surgery, and a nice cap put on top. Now there was 2.500bucks I could have spent on chocolate and lollies. 
Right front got head butted in half by my old Kung fu instuctor. He just got the hit in a split second before me. There I was spitting out blood and bits of pearly white enamel on the floor, and all he said was, KEEP FIGHTING. 
Now that's capped. And been hanging in there for over 20years. Pretty good hey!
So now I just sit here. Drinking my herbal tea, with maple syrup shooters. Not counting my teeth, but leaving it a mystery for the ages.   Me out.

Fennel tea

I sit here with my Fennel tea,
wondering bout the man I'll be.
With graying hair, or bald to see.
What has my LORD GOD planned for me?

Max

Just saw a photo of my dog Max. Had to get him put down last year. He was in lots of pain. But he was the best dog ever. Miss ya buddy. Me out.

Jelly ghost

Well it sort of looks like a ghost. Maybe. 

The saying goes...."How do you take revenge on a ghost."

And she did

You invaded my soul
   and you stole my heart

A PLACE

There is a place that needs to be found by every man.

Past the pain - beyond the pleasure.

A place where he will ask
    'Who am I?"
"No, I mean WHO AM I REALLY?"


If everything was to be stripped away
removed
     emptied
         gone


If all that is left is the man


" Who will I be?"

 

BREATHING A BREATH

Have you ever wanted to just throw your hands in the air?
To say, "That's it. Ive had enough. You win."

Have you ever felt like not breathing?
I don't mean to hold your breath.

But to not want to breathe, 
to not bother, to let go.

Have you been there?